Thursday, May 28, 2009


So I didn't really think anyone took the time to read my blog, but then I saw all these comments on my blog the other day and I felt so blessed! THANKS GUYS! You all rock!

So we are having quiet time in the house right now. Most days quiet time isn't all that quiet and I usually end up spending the whole time answering questions that Jadelyn has thought up during the day. Don't get me wrong, I love that my little ones are so curious and want to know about everything, but really I can only take so many questions. I can only answer so many of them since I don't really know the answer to them all. A lot of times I find myself telling her to ask her dad when he gets home. And she doesn't forget to ask him every single question that mom didn't answer. I guess one thing I am just so thankful for is that she has never gotten into the Why question stage...that would really drive me nuts! I actually have a few minutes. We had a great playdate today with some friends at the park and had a picnic with them. It was a great time. It's really awesome to have friends who have kids the same age as mine so that the girls have some playmates. I also enjoy the adult conversation! Sometimes I think I start to sound like a little kids because I just start talking like they do! It's funny!

Liliana's birthday party is coming up on Saturday! Crazy!!! She is going to be 3 on June 2nd! CAN IT REALLY BE??? I feel like I just had her...ok so really it feels like I just had all of them! But I am in a place where my kids just keep getting bigger and bigger and just realizing that there is nothing I can do about it! I can only pray that I am doing a good job and being a good example to them. Sometimes I find myself getting so frustrated with them and yelling at them. I thought to myself...I don't exept that kind of behavior from them, so why am I doing it? Not a very good example Sarah! Shame shame.

The new little one has a little over a month before she comes...I STILL DON'T HAVE A NAME! I think we have a few that we like...but still nothing that really is sticking with us! I know it will come, but I just feel stressed out about it! I feel very unprepared. But ready or or no name...the baby will come!

Friday, May 15, 2009

Am I failing?

I am glad that they don't give out grades for motherhood and housecleaning. I am not sure that I would get a very good grade. I try not to let these thoughts get into my head that I am doing a terrible job, but sometimes you just can't ignore them. Sometimes it's just so loud in my head. Mainly it's the days that my kids are going crazy and it seems like I get nothing done around the house. But I know the next day will be different. I just keep remembering that I can do this...not on my own of course...but I know that I can overcome these feelings. I think if I were to ask my kids they would say I am doing a great job! :) Maybe they would give me an A!

Tuesday, May 12, 2009


So I have found a book, "Unchristian" that talks about a lot of what I have been wanting to find out. Trying to figure out what non-Christians think about us Christians. What I have thought is pretty true...we don't have the best reputation. Not all of it is the fault of Christians, some of it is the media and how they portray us. But I do think it's important to know what people think about us and how we can and should change our attitudes.

The book mainly talks about the age group of 16-29. There are twenty-four million in that group and out of that less than half a million have a positive outlook on evangelical Christians. Isn't that crazy?

The book says
"The primary reason outsiders feel hostile towards Christians, and especially conservative Christians, is not because of any specific theological perspective. What they react negatively to is our "swagger", how we go about things and the sense of self-importance we project. Outsiders say that Christians possess bark - and bite. Christians may not normally operate in attack mode, but it happens frequently enough that others have learned to watch their step around us. Outsiders feel they can't let Christians walk over them."

One person put it this way,
"Most people I meet assume that Christian means very conservative, entrenched in their thinking, antigay, antichoice, angry, violent, illogical, empire builders; they want to convert everyone, and they generally cannot live peacefully with anyone who doesn't believe what they believe."

So  I agree with a lot of this. A lot of us Christians do seem to have a "swagger". We find ourselves holier than everyone else and usually let people know it. We are pretty big headed and we are the only ones who don't seem to see it. I am not saying that every Christian is like this, but a lot are. I have run into a few who even make me feel like I am a terrible person. What is that saying when we even start making other Christians think badly of us? I don't want to start a big argument...I just think it's time that we start thinking about the image we put out there. Also there are some of these things that the media is really good at portraying for us. The fact that we have a certain moral standard seems to be a bad thing. I can love a person and be their friend without having to accept their lifestyle. It's a moral issue. I don't have to agree with everyone on their choice, but that doesn't make me intolerant. It just means I have a different moral standard than others. Anyway...that is not what my blog is about...

I hope that we can take some time to look in ourselves and think about our "swagger". Are we giving off the image of God? Or are we giving off a holier than though look? Just something to think about.

Friday, May 8, 2009

Names Names Names

Oh my! I have about two months left before our little one gets here. It seems like it has just flown by! Normally I am not this whole name thing and we usually have on picked out by this time...but here I am so stuck! I can't find a name that I like or one that seems to fit...or one that my husband doesn't say with a funny accent! Darrel wasn't really feeling any pressure about the whole name thing...but now he seems to be feeling it a little. My biggest fear is that I will have the baby and have no name for her! YIKES!

And it seems hard too because we have put ourselves in this name pattern without thinking about it. All the girls have two name first names. JadeLyn, LiliAna and Scarlet Letta. So Scarletta's may not be so obvious...but it still is. And then they all have L names. Lyn, Lili and Letta. we keep up with this? If so that really makes it a big harder! I am not sure that I can keep up with the whole thing. I know that when we get to the name it will just feel right!

I love one name that is Biblical...I don't really want to say it, but it's the lady in the Bible who drove a tent peg into someones head. I know that just sounds gross...but really it's a great story...and when I think about her she really knew what side she was on. She knew she was on God's side. I would be interested to know if any one knows the name.

Well here I go back to the name book!

Monday, May 4, 2009

What's going on???

Recently I have been asking a lot of people why they don't go to Church or what they think of Christians. I keep getting a generic answer of it's boring or I don't think I really need to. But something inside of me wonders if there is really something more to their answer that they just don't want to share. I do understand some of the comments to my last post, and one I wanted to address directly was the Church being the body of Christ. I do agree with you. The Church should be the body of Christ, but I believe that the Church in America has gotten very mixed up in a few things. And I don't think non-Christians really see it that way. I guess really I am trying to get into peoples head...but really interested in those who once claimed to be Christians and now are not walking with the Lord.

I also think about a song by a group name "Addison Road" called "What do I know of Holy." I first heard this song at a Mercy Me worship event with this group there and it really hit me hard. I started really thinking about how we get really mixed up in the motions and words and we act and talk like we know who God is, but really do we even have the slightest idea of who He is? A lot of times I think we try to explain God in so many ways, which only really end up putting God in a box. Really my thought is that we can't really know what God is like or figure out everything He can do or how he does it.  I know that we do know things about God and his character...but really as the song says...

I’ve made you promises a thousand times
I’ve tried to hear from heaven but I talk the whole time
I think I made you too small, I’ve never feared you at all
If you touched my face would I know you?
Looked into my eyes could I behold you?

What do I know of you who spoke me into motion
Where have I even stood but the shore along your ocean?
Are you fire, are you fury
Are you sacred, are you beautiful
What do I know? What do I know of holy?

I guess I thought that I had you figured out
I knew all the stories and I learned to talk about
How you were mighty to save
But those were only empty words on a page
Then I caught a glimpse of who you might be
The slightest hint of you brought me down to my knees

If you have thoughts to add please do. I love hearing other views and it constantly helps me keep thinking about things.

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